shadowed by memories

agh ugh agh ugh

2006-11-05T17:16:00.000+07:00

menulis itu apaaaa?

wb helomoto...;p

illusive mind 2

2006-03-22T10:30:00.000+07:00

Hope, in the face of our human distress helps us to understand the turbulance deep inside that takes hold of our lives..
Shame and disgrace over mental unrest, keeps us from saving those we love..

face-of-muhammed

2006-02-17T15:36:00.000+07:00

A comment to this

Seems to me that we are under another attack of what the so-called "freedom". What was the reason of European colonization over the world? Was it not to deliver "freedom" to the world? What do we get from such a freedom?

You want your freedom? We want our freedom, too..

:((

2006-02-14T20:00:00.000+07:00

SAYA LAGI SEDIH ..

shadowed by memories

2006-02-14T14:43:00.000+07:00

I swear I recognize those faces.. Memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.
Me? You wouldn't recall for I'm not my former. It's hard when you're stuck upon yourself.

In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti..

2006-02-12T13:33:00.000+07:00

Jesus help me.. I cannot use my brain ..

sounds great but i need it right now

wishlist

2006-02-10T01:03:00.000+07:00

PENGEN:
kamar sendiri
stratocaster
amd athlon fx
belajar foto & punya kamera
ada yang sabar ngajarin gw main piano
kerja "tapi" digaji
banyak makan terus nggak kurus lagi
putihan dikit (dikit aja.. jgn banyak-banyak)
gondrong lagi
pake anting lagi
tato (lagi ??)
punya band lagi
gabung di platypus
darah keluar dari hidung (keren..)
nggak diakuin anak tapi tetep disayang sama ortu
bawa robin & bleki ke kost
pulang.. capek..

Kebebasan

2006-02-09T18:20:00.000+07:00

Ahh, omong kosong kebebasan. Nggak ada seseorang di dunia ini yang bebas.

siapa yang merasa bebas boleh protes kok

Smoking Glory

2006-02-09T17:14:00.000+07:00

Morning Glory

2006-02-09T17:06:00.000+07:00

Nggak mikirin komposisi. Asal tabrak aja...

illusive mind

2006-02-06T17:27:00.000+07:00

Masih dari DT;

She dresses in black everyday..
She keeps her hair simple and plain.
She never wears makeup..
But no one would care if she did anyway.

She doesn't recall yesterday..
Faces seem twisted and strange.
But she always wakes up..
Only to find she'd been miles away.

Absence of awareness..
A lapse of perception..
Losing time..

Wanting to escape, she had created a way to survive.
She learned to detach from herself..
A behavior that kept her alive.

Lagu ini nempel di jidat terus sekarang. I wonder why..

buntu

2006-02-05T17:04:00.000+07:00

Banyak pikiran dan mau curhat.. Seperti biasa mentok di otak doang nggak mau keluar ke otot. Gimana yah caranya ngeluarin semua sampah di kepala gue? Masa sih untuk ngungkapin perasaan gue sendiri mesti cari contekan dari orang lain yg kebetulan sedang merasakan hal yg sama?

Kayaknya bener kalo rutinitas mengurangi kreatifitas..
Kayaknya gue butuh kepribadian yg lain yang bisa ceplas-ceplos mengungkapkan perasaan dan pikiran.. pfff.. Enak nggak yah punya dual personality?.. Jgn banyak2.. dua aja..

.:.

2006-02-03T11:53:00.000+07:00

Lifting shadows off a dream once broken
She can turn a drop of water into an ocean

aaargghhh...

2006-02-03T10:28:00.000+07:00

Haus.. pengen ngopi tapi boilernya rusak.
Bisa aja sih turun 4 lantai beli di kantin. Gak punya duit sama sekali.. (cuma ada 200perak)

Asem.. pengen marlboro merah yang rasanya pahit atau djarum super yang pedas daripada ngembatin a-mild nya temen yang rasanya gw gak pernah suka.
Bisa aja sih turun 4 lantai beli di kantin. Gak punya duit sama sekali.. (cuma ada 200perak)

Bete.. pengen chatting sama T.. Kasian dia lagi depresi berat.. (love u, T)
Komputernya dipake.. Gak bs chatting di amd-k6-iii ini yg penuh virus dan kipas prosesornya suka ngadat

Pengen dengerin Dream Theatre atau Pearl Jam yang katanya berisik.. Atau Eagles atau Norah Jones yang mengalun..
Temen gue lagi nyetel koleksinya dia yg gak bisa dicerna sama sekali oleh otak gw

a n j r i t ! ! !

2006-02-02T21:27:00.000+07:00

Alkohol, nikotin, kafein, sedikit endapan asap canabis, sedikit pengetahuan.. sedikit ingatan.. Otak gue butek.. Nulis aja nggak bisa.. Ngapain juga bikin kayak ginian..

mmm...

2006-02-02T12:50:00.000+07:00

Hari ini makanannya rendang, lalap, tahu, sambel yg gak jelas..
Untung laper...
Tapi wait a minute.. WAAAAKKK... gw gak punya rokok..

Dengerin Trial of Tears sambil baca blognya cewek anne(h).. keren tulisannya.. makes me wanna kill someone..

Misunderstood

2006-02-02T12:30:00.000+07:00

Playing a lion being led to a cage..
I turn from surreal to seclusion
From love to disdain..
From belief to delusion..
From a thief to a beggar..
From a god to God to save me

How can I feel abandoned even when the world surrounds me..
How can I bite the hand that feeds the strangers all around me..
How can I know so many..
Never really knowing anyone

the great debate

2006-01-30T14:43:00.000+07:00

What if someone said
Promise lies ahead
Hopes are high in certain scientific circles
Life won't have to end
You could walk again

What if someone said
Problems lie ahead
They've uncovered something highly controversial
The right to life is strong
Can't you see it's wrong

Human kind has reached a turning point
Poised for conflict at ground zero
Ready for a war
Do we look to our unearthly guide
Or the white coat heroes
Searching for a cure

Turn to the light
Don't be frightened of the shadows it creates
Turn to the light
Turning away would be a terrible mistake

Anarchistic moral vision
Industries of death
Facing violent opposition
Unmolested breath

Ethic inquisitions breed
Antagonistic views
Right wing soundbyte premonitions
In a labyrinth of rules

Are you justified
Are you justified
Are you justified
Justified in taking
Life to save life
Life to save life
Taking life to save life

This embryonic clay
Wrapped in fierce debate
Would be thrown away
Or otherwise discarded

Some of us believe
It may hold the key
To treatment of disease
And secrets highly guarded

Are you justified
Are you justified
Are you justified
Justified in taking
Life to save life
Life to save life
Life to save life

Humankind has reached a turning point
Poised for conflict at ground zero
Ready for a war
Do we look to our unearthly guide
Or to white coat heroes

Turn to the light
Don't be frightened of the shadows it creates
Turn to the light
Turning away would be a terrible mistake

We're reaching
But have we gone too far

Harvesting existence
Only to destroy
Carelessly together
We are sliding

Someone else's future
Four days frozen still
Someone else's fate
We are deciding

Miracle potential
Sanctity of life
Faced against each other
We're divided

Should we push the boundaries
Or should we condemn
Moral guilt and science
Have collided

Turn to the light
We defy our own mortality these days
Turn to the light
Pay attention to the questions we have raised

by Dream Theatre

i want my desktop.....

2006-01-27T14:56:00.000+07:00

Laptop sucks...

who? me?

2006-01-27T14:25:00.000+07:00

Who was the last who sent you an sms?
T
How's Life?
Sad
Are you good in your studies?
No
Can you speak English?
Not so good
Who was the last who said "Love You"?
T
Who is the most Annoying Person you know?
my roomate
Future School/College/University?
masih di sini2 aja (semoga)
What time is it now?
14:38
What do you call yourself?
gue
What song are you listening to now?
kla project
How many friends do you have on Friendster?
a little too much
Who are you chatting with?
T
Are you in trouble?
yep
Have you been HeartBroken before?
yep
Missing Someone?
always
What day is today?
forget
Any birthday's coming up? Who's ?
keuteung
Bored?
nop
Last Channel you watched on TV ?
none
What time did you sleep last night?
1 am
Do kids love you?
dont know
Do you make people Laugh?
yep.. too much
Do you give away your secret to anyone?
yes
Ever Smoked?
yup
Ever Drinked?
yup
Ever got drunked?
yep
Dumped Someone?
nope
Are you Caring, Loving and Tender?
nope
Do you love getting msgs at friendster?
depends
Are you bored of doing this?
nop
What's your fantasy?
mmmmmmm...
Are u in anger right now?
nope
Are u angry at someone?
yep
What do u really want to do now?
fill this blog
What brand of clothes do u like?
any brand
What brand of shoes do you like?
adidas
[who's the prettiest?]
nindy
[Do you believe in soul mates]
yep
[Who is the stupid-est?]
dont know

**In the last 24 hours, have you**

[Cried]
nope
[laughed]
yep
[Felt sad]
yep
[wanted to kill someone]
nope
Honestly, is there a special *someone*?
sure

jealousy

2006-01-24T18:18:00.000+07:00

Now she's jealous.. Of a person i don't even know..
I like Meg Ryan and Rachel Weisz, and it never bothers her before.. Now, she's jealous of a person whose name i don't even know..

Give me a break, T..

constant gardener

2006-01-23T18:45:00.000+07:00

Just watched the movie last night..
A good movie..
Good actors, good setting, good story..

rainy monday

2006-01-23T11:33:00.000+07:00

Just turned my phone on this morning.. A lot of messages from T.. Said she misses me..
Hell, i miss her a lot..

males nulis

2006-01-20T11:22:00.000+07:00

Males ngapa2in juga.. Males nyalain telpon, males browsing, males kerja.. Cuma pengen maen FM kompie-nya dipake...

busway

2006-01-19T13:44:00.000+07:00

Katanya busway dari kalideres-pulogadung udah jadi.. Hehehe.. ongkos pulang ke rumah jd lebih hemat.. Tinggal naik kereta sampe juanda and ngelanjutin busway smp klpgdg

no phone today

2006-01-18T21:19:00.001+07:00

For once more, i'm hiding. Hiding from real life. Actually, i'm tired of running. I'm tired of hiding. Tired of everything..

Sorry T, i feel like worthless.. I feel like you're not "the one".. I love you, honest, with all my heart. But i don't think love is enough while there are too much differences.

I'm a freak, she said. I feel like one, too. I'm proud of it, she said again... And I say "NO!!!".
I used to, not anymore since a long time ago.. I regret my past doings.

If I could change anything, it will be myself.. I'm not PROUD of myself..

playboy

2006-01-18T10:58:00.000+07:00

Kenapa sih pada ribut? Bukannya Indonesia ini negara yg liberal-demokratis-kapitalis, yah?

Hey, kita punya Hard Rock Cafe, Hilton, Sheraton, Starbucks. Kita dengerin lagu-lagunya Ricky Martin, Madonna, Limp Bizkit. Kita makan Pizza Hut, MacDonalds, dll..
Apa bedanya sama Playboy?

Apa? MORAL??
Kayaknya nggak kompeten deh klo kita yang ngomong.. Liat aja di jalanan tingkah polahnya orang-orang...

she's a friend

2006-01-17T18:08:00.000+07:00

From now on she is my friend. At least she accepted my FS request.
Damn.. I don't even know who she is or was or will be..
A manic depresive girl with impressive writings. Welcome..(???)